‘Kay, so I basically stopped doing anything for this site and have realised I’ve gotten really, super-uber lazy these past… weeks, months…years? LOL. And I just think I need some inspiration (like I keep saying to myself) and more time in a day to get productive & creative! It’s so hard trying to balance university, taking responsibilties to do everything yourself like doing laundry, shopping for food and cooking for yourself. Oops, I forgot cleaning your place, but I don’t really do that—don’t tell my mother Add to that list, your ridiculous amount of assignments, projects, revision, further reading… it’s a never ending list.

I’m sure you all know what it’s like. And I’m sure I must have written this kinda blog about 1833 times before. I am just so fed up with it. I even skip classes just because “I don’t feel like going in”. WHAT IS THAT? I’m meant to be the studious kid- well, at least the kind who attends each class. I never, ever skipped any lessons in high school. And I do feel guilty when I miss classes, but then I’m like “meh” at the same time. It’s getting craazy I tell ya.

Honestly, I know that my actual classes has something to do with it, like how darn hard it is, how the teachers don’t really help you out with anything and how it has nothing to do with web design- the course I am paying for. Like, hello? What does ‘compressing audio’ and knowing the extreme detail about ‘human hearing’ gotta do anything with web design, or internet related, or even computer related???? Uh, so angry at whoever organised these classes.

Anyway, so I decided I might continue with this site when it gets a little less hectic in life (like I keep saying) or maybe just ditch this site altogether and make a new one. I was thinking a personal portfolio site; since I am interested in graphic design as well, so I could design graphic pieces & (when I get a DSLR camera) photography peices; throw in some tutorials somewhere too, and show my future clients who wants me to create their website how talented I am, haha. If web design doesn’t work out, I’m going to college and take up graphic design classes for improvement and see where that takes me. I’ve also wanted to try out animation (we’re doing 3D animation next year in university!) so..I’ll go that way in my career path. All I know is that my ideal future career will be creative and fun, I hope. Ah, who knew actually having a plan for the future would get me so excited

I don’t know how I end up going to bed 2-4AM each night, but unfortunately this is what happens when you’re me. I’m pretty sure when May arrives, it’s gonna be even worse- as this is when all of my projects/assignments are due in and in need of full study mode for my first ever exam in two years! Golly.
What’s even funny is that this week I had no major homework- scratch that, I had NO homework this week. It’s been pretty stress-free, chillin’ in my own apartment I haven’t had much classes either haha. Gah, I shouldn’t be spending so much time in the internet just to play Petville on facebook and finding cute pictures on Tumblr But I do know though, I’m definitely sooooo much better controlled than my previous years. Hm, II think ‘ll give myself a pat on the back for that.

I really don’t know what to do with my life. It’s just, so confusing right now. And I’m pretty much depressed with everything that has happened over the last few months. All I know is that I am still fond of graphic design and more or less into web design, but have no idea how to actually achieve this career when I get out of university. I know that we’re supposed to learn that soon, and next year, but honestly, I don’t think I’m cut out for it. Oh I lack so much in confidence. >.< Okay, I'm just rambling on 'cause I'm super tired.

I need help. I need sleep. Good night<3 Oh & it's currently 12:51AM, which isn'r too bad OH, & I also watched Avatar, in 3D today. It was pretty much awesome.

I hate that awful feeling school/college/work is in the next day, and will set out the majority of your week with work, pain and stress. But hey, I guess I shouldn’t be complaining. I only have to go in for 4 days (not even full days) and tomorrow I have a late start.
I guess I’m just tired. Tired of it all. I’m still in my laziest mood ever, causing me to not work my best & miss classes just cause I’m 2 minutes late leaving the house (I wish I was kidding!).

I don’t have much to say. I’m not really into my site right now either I need tips, inspiration, motivation to keep it going and life is draining all positive energy outta me.

Imma leave it to that. I hope you all are doing great<3

I think I had at least one happy event/small moment/feeling each day this week. It’s pretty impressive considering the fact that I honestly thought I’d die…if not from the extreme super killing machine snowball weather, then from all the assignments due in a few days. Luckily for me, I hadn’t need to go out much in this weather. I kinda don’t like this much coldness. I keep reminding myself I love winter over summer, but right now, I’m thinking overwise! OH BUT I DID WANT TO MAKE A SNOWMAN; too bad I missed the chance when it snowed quite heavily in my hometown. This happened last year as well. The chances of me having any fun in snow is 0.003%, cause I swear every time it does snow this heavy, it’s either bad timing (like I have a ton of work to do which I can’t ignore again or else I WILL be murdered by my parents) or it doesn’t even snow in my area I might just move to Alaska if I get desperate

So the happy events in life this week consists of … monday: not being late to class.. *to self*?? Really? Haha. Wow okay I’ll go with that Tuesday, I gotten myself my first follower on tumblr, which honestly made my day. On Wednesday, my graphic design skills gets noticed, and my worst morning class was cancelled which was a pure joy. It was either Wednesday or Thursday when I found out that I got a grade B for a work I started doing at 12AM tues night/wed morning which I didn’t really enjoy working on, or understood for that matter haha, so I’m pretty happy Yesterday, I didn’t go in uni at all, and I made a phone-call home to ask my mum what the measurements were for making porridge for one person hahah, and then had a good chat with both mum and dad. It was sweet. Plus my dad told me in the summer, we’re going to New Delhi and seeing the Taj Mahal!!!!!!! It’s made life worth looking forward to now Oh and today, I made some good progress on one of my assignments (making a website from a well-known company using a leaflet as a guideline for design); so I’m nearlyyy done with the website, and tomorrow I shall check if it all works and write up 2000 words for analysis. Fun, right?

Sorry, kinda lengthy blog. It’s to make up last week’s non-existent blogs I probably do the same thing from now on, ’til it gets a little less hectic. Follow me on tumblr though (majority of my tumblog is picture blogs), I usually queue up posts so I will post at least one thing up each day

I have so much to do; my projects and assignments are due in a week’s time or so and I’m basically screwed. It’s gonna be one of those crazy stay-up-all-night-and-get-no-sleep-whatsoever-for-seven-days-straight and go absolutely mental and stressed that it’s hardly unbelievable any human could possibly feel- except maybe worse! I don’t even like going back with my homework all completed, end off. Haha.

I can’t remember what I was gonna write in this paragraph lol, it’s already getting to me. Ahhhh help!
On the brighter side to life, ’cause so far this year is not so good :/ … I’ve managed to complete, I’d say, 80% of my dad’s new website for his company. Weeee. And he doesn’t hate it! He’s extremely picky, as his daughter is I guess So now I can be proud that I had experience away from university working on a professional website: this makes me proud

I watched TV and took pictures while watching it, like a true dork 8-)

And my poor attempts of catching a firework display from my neighbour’s garden haha. Although I’m rather proud of myself for catching ANYTHING

New layout is up, as promised. I’d say it’s kinda different to what I usually do? I don’t know. I definitely never had this dark blue colour scheme goin’ on before, that’s fersure, haha. & I like it As well as a new layout, I added 30 new icons!

Other online news, I joined tumblr. I’m so looking forward to posting as much as I’d like there, haha. Not that updating this site is boring or anything, (no no no, SP is my love) and I WON’T disappear, you’ll just find me over there as well I want to join Flickr too, but got a lot of images I have to edit. But first, I shall get myself a decent camera.

I’m on my dad’s laptop, which is oh-so-light and small that it’s actually making me jealous (minus the fact that I think typing on this thing is hard). Why can’t I have a mega widescreen laptop that doesn’t weigh A TON?!??

Pirates of the Caribbean 2 was just on, and a few other awesome movies was shown today. Yes, that means I spent the whole day watching movies. Productive and active, I know

To the point, HAPPY NEW YEARS EVE. I’m spending with my family, indoors. Hope you all have an amazing year
My chinese food is here, time to eat!!!!!!

via : fyeahbokeh”

I miss the sight of bubbles. They’re truly magically; in a non-lame sort of way, of course

Today I went shopping, as planned. My sister decided to go back to sleep causing the trip to be a little delayed, I got a little mad throughout as my sister did as well, and erm, my mum seems to be happy buying nothing
Good news though, I bought some good purchases! I’ve got myself some decent cheap hoodies and a teal coloured top

I’d talk more about my uninteresting life, but I’m so tired. NEW layout coming soon to a screen near you. Or something like that. Whatever, haha. Good night London!

This song is raaad I love the bridge near the end: MY BEST BIT.
Anyway…
I think I ate waaay too much food at Christmas that surprisingly enough, I’ve gained some weight. I’m not sure if this is a good thing or bad thing yet, I’ll have to wait and see whether I can fit into clothes without looking like Santa, or my dad if I were in my harsh mood hahah. My dad does need to go on a diet though.. or at least do some sit-ups every once in a while (like he says he wants to do!).

I’ve finally made a layout that looks like it’ll be finished by the end of the week without being deleted before I save it! It’s weird how I have no inspiration to make a decent layout straight away these days…or is it my lack of design skills that’s enabling me to go further?!? I ruddy hope not.

I’m going for my winter sale shopping tomorrow with my mum and sister. Me and my sister will end up murdering eachother in public, haha. What fun.

All credit goes to these sites. Abuzeedo & Gizmodo

I’d love to go ice skating in Central London around this jolly festive season. I love looking at lights, and the stars at night as they twinkle so bright Don’t you hate when plans doesn’t get turned into an action for a beautiful memory to look back to, in the future?

For all of those who had the same ol’ Friday, I hope you had an exceptionally good day

For those who feels a little lonliness at this time of year: always remember to love the person that you are, and know that you are beautiful inside & out. You’re not alone. Hang in there<3

I’m actually on myspace right now for the first time in 9 months or so?!! o.o If you haven’t added me yet, do it now and say hiiiii Strangely I had a lot of great feedback, it has totally made my day!

So this morning I received the letter from the driving agency and they let me know my driving test is in February.. 16^th at 13:31 PM. I have NO IDEA why the times are so weird like that. My driving test yesterday would have been at 11:21AM. Talk about being precise LOL. This means I have to skip uni for a few days/week so I can grab a few more lessons before the test- shh don’t tell anyone! Oh and the 16^th is also a day before my theory runs out. A bit unhappy if I DO fail, but I’m also happy I didn’t get a date after the 16^th, so yea

I need to think of ideas for the site, baaad.

I had a driving test today. I woke up pretty early, took a shower then looked outside to see if any of the snow has melted away.. but no. My driving instructor told me to ring up the test center in the morning to check if my test is still doable. And no, it’s not It has been canceled or rather, postponed to a later date. I was so sad. They told me they’ll let me know soon. I wanna know when exactly, though. Seeing I’ll be leaving home 3 hours away, after 2 weeks for next semester. THIS SUCKS.

I live opposite my primary school (elementary school) in a dead-end road, so I just saw how awful the driving conditions were. People had to do a turn in the road, which took them like 5 minutes to do when it could be done in a matter of seconds! Their wheels was just not going anywhere. And you can hear brake screeches or something. It was crazy.

In a way though, I knew I wasn’t FULLY prepared for the test. Someone told me eating an apple before driving helps with concentration, and another told me to take paracetamols to relax me. I also haven’t revised properly the questions about the car (like, how do I test the brakes are working etc) so I guess it was good? Ah I don’t know. I’m just annoyed that I spent the whole week driving for the test today and it was pretty much a waste? What if they reschedule to February, when my theory test RUNS OUT!!!! That means I have to pay for the theory test again, and hope I pass again knowing it’s gonna be hella difficult than it was before.
Gah, life is pretty much hard for me right now >.<

Sitting on the train for over two & a half hours, listening to my iPod during the journey and knowing that I’ll be getting picked up by my dad in a matter of hours from the station was just a… super great feeling. When I have finally reached my destination, I exited out the station straddling my suitcase on one hand, and carrying my huge white handbag, wearing a lot of layers including a coat and a long, thick scarf, making it a little hard to walk.. into the blustering coldness. I’d just noticed my dad on the other side of the road and greeted him with the biggest smile, which for me, very unexpected I must say Opened the car door, then got surprised by my mum and sister also in the car too!! It was sweeet.

The next day (Saturday 12^th), we wanted to celebrate my sister’s 18^th soo we decided to go buy a new laptop for my sister as her present, watch 2012 and eat at Pizza Hut. We wanted to play bowling before the film since we had so much spare time but it was fully booked, which was a shame since my parents never everr played bowling before. 2012 was good. I think the ‘effects’ of the crumbling roads could be done a bit better to make it more…realistic, however my parents and sister kinda hated it. Oh we ate nachos (melted cheddar on top) with jalapenos and spicy-ish salsa. ABSOLUTE HEAVEN FOOD. I really wanted more, but we also bought large sweet popcorn to share between the four of us so yea. Then we ate late lunch/dinner at Pizza Hut, ordered WAYY too much food but had the nicest dessert EVER!

“Warm CookieDough—Choclate chips melted into a warm, chewy cookie dough & served with vanilla ice cream”
How delicious does this sound? This gets me all hungry That was the dessert I ate by the way.

Yesterday, I met up with two of my closest friends to see Paranormal Activity and then go shopping after. The film wasn’t good…it was not scary, had not much of a plot and what the hell- apparently there are three endings shown at different times of the day/theatres. Hmm. At the end of the film, it went black for a while, and we was waiting and waiting and even more waiting if the film had more to it… apparently not, and apparently there is no credits either LOL. Shopping later was freezing cold but great fun Oh I love the holidays

That’s pretty much my week. Plus I started driving again. Ooooh zomg snow is here. It’s like the first time in YEARS since we had snow in December!!!!!!! It’s so freaky haha. Unfortunately, I dislike the snow (for once) because I’m driving, and driving in snow is no funnn.

This song is soooo dang catchy, it makes me put it on repeat 30x in a row. 8-)

I finally finally finallyyyy coded a photoshop tutorial for “Tilt Shift Model” that I had created (screenshots and roughly written out the steps) four months ago. HOORAY. I made myself proud. Now I just have to make another… oh lets say, 82 tutorials and 2762 other blogs and updates around the site to make up for the delay. I don’t know why I put off the tutorial for so long. Ugh I hate when I do this actually. I put off too much chores or whatever in life (yes, unfortunately this happens in the real world too) and then regret it not doing it sooner.

This smoothly moves on to my next blog topic.. [ hang on, is it topic or subject? I never can tell between the two & this is sad..okay, anyway, back to blog ] of packing my junk up and moving out for the winter holidays. I TOTALLY CANNOT WAIT. CAN YA TELL??!? I never thought I’d see the day: I was getting so frustrated with the littlest things, lonely, depressed, drowned with work and have also suffered from complete boredom in most lectures I’ve had the last 10 weeks. I’m not a happy bunny. Why bunny? I have no clue.

Counting from tomorrow, it’s three days left. Three days!!!!!!!! So as you might have guessed, or maybe you haven’t cause I tend to ramble on… like I’m doing right now.. I haven’t started packing yet. And I KNOW I will be consumed with homework or whatnot, leaving me with no time to shower, possibly? Maybe? No? Yeah, I doubt I’ll cut my shower time to avoid getting outta here sooner! I sure do need to spend less hours in the shower, though Another big concern is tidying up and cleaning my apartment. Since I haven’t done that in a while cause I’m just that lazy, who knows how I’d find the time to fight those germs. I need super mario with me to win. Or maybe a strong detergent. Either one will do just fine, haha.

Annnd happy birthday to my sister who turned 18 today!<3 Oh those years when you're an adult yet still a teenager. Mine will be ending in a few months *cries*. I don't like being old.

Happy December.
Happy winter.
Happy 1^st of a new month…ooh ooohh- PINCH PUNCH first day of the month, no returns!

I miss doing that. I used to drive people crazy, haha.
Sooooo since this is the first of December, most people are counting down via Christmas advent calendars. FYI good ol’ Facebook gave me this information For me, I’m mostly counting down the days until I get to be warm, sweet home. I haven’t gotten myself an advent calendar since I was like 10- geez I thought kids only got them.. who knew. I missed out on the delights of having something to look forward to each day.. what was it again? Open doors and have some candy? Can’t you just buy a multipack of some chocolate, pretend the wrappers are doors with numbers on them, and eat the chocolate which will be in a larger quantity than the ones they provide in the calendars? Not as fun.. but certainly much cheaper and better if you’re not on a diet.

I thought I’d blog now, just to let you know I’m surviving my second year. It’s 1 AM and I realised I’m gonna panic in a few days because I have so much work to do. Work work work. That’s how my life rolls from now on: wake up, get up late, go to university late, do nothing there, go back home, television, dinner, sleep late. Then for those exciting days it’d be the same, except after dinner there will be a “MAJOR STRESS-OUT session until 4 in the morning while I try to do a lot of work in one go”. This technique is not great but somehow I survive the next day. I was wondering why I do this every time an assignment is due in a few hours time, and I’ve come to the conclusion that I work best under pressure. Unfortunately my brain cells refuses to concentrate if I’m not in total pressure, unless I’m not trying hard enough but again, blame my brain cells for that

I need to go bed like right now for a full day tomorrow. It starts off with a fun Media Formats lecture. Like, the most boringest class you can ever imagine- unless you’re into how sound and audio/video compression works. What that has to do with web design is beyond me. My class had a rant last week to the teacher in class, and he kept going on about how employees asks that web designers are equipped with the knowledge of ‘media formats’. Um, really? Though hearing the rant made me happy to know that most of my classmates HATES the class and now the teacher sorta feels for us too, (at least I hope he does).

BLAH, I’m tired talking nonsense. I love winter: people in a christmasy spirit, the chance to wrap yourself up in cute, cosy, warm clothes and drinking hot beverage inside your warm house, the coldness (better than being hot and sweaty in my opinion), and the feeling that break is coming up!! What I hate about winter is walking alone in the dark (for example, when it’s 3:30 PM). If you get what I mean. It creeps me out knowing that they are el creepos out there. All of a sudden the word “creep” looks weird… I hope that’s spelled right. Man I really need to go before I start seeing Santa Claus out my window.

Hope you all have a safe and happy week<3

New layout, finally!!!!!
This wasn’t the original layout I made like three weeks ago, but I like this sort of more. The other one consisted of blended model images in cold autumn colours. It was pretty, but I think cause I’ve been working on it for so long… it seems, well boring.
BUT I GUESS THAT’S NORMAL 4 ME.
Then I thought it looked too busy, colours weren’t working well, etcetera etcetera—you can tell I’m too soft on self critiquing!

Soooo what colour always wins for a nineteen year old tomboy-girly girl? Why pink of course. This isn’t even my favourite shade of pink, but a little change won’t hurt right? Haha. I’m sorry for almost every viewer out there who hates this colour, it’s just one of my online weakness unfortunately >.<" And I'm not sure if everyone can view the affiliates sidebar fully.. so I might change some things around. It took me FOREVER to code it right. I was very relieved this morning when I finally figured it out. Handy google links, I love you.

Though, what I don’t love is this ghastly weather. It’s mad I tell ya. Pretty much the whole of the United Kingdom had been hit with this horrific storm Last night I was watching the Sixth Sense (one of my favourite movies ever) and it really freaked me out how bad this storm-like weather was (plus, movie was so not helping my happy mood heh). The wind was literally banging on my balcony glass door outside my third floor apartment, trying to break its way in.
I was frightened I’d be sleeping in the absolute coldness. Another fear would be manic burglars stealing my valuable possessions, aka my precious laptop that sounds like a lawn mower and of course, my cute pairs of socks just lying around on the floor, and maybe, a risk of my Coco Pops cereal being taken away from me. Oh these manic burglars; they’d do anything to get their hands on coco pops nowadays- the cereal is just too yummy. Or maybe they’re attracted to the monkey character of the box? Hmm.. now that’s a thinker.

1 minute 15 seconds for me
However, at times I have ate 3.15 minute toasts, never over that thank goodness haha

3 minutes later. Gah DAMMIT I just jinxed myself- I was grilling my Tuesday’s lunch cheese on toast. Damn you quick heating grills. I didn’t bother to scrape off the burnt side or should I say, the rock hard charcoal out. Now you know my laziness goes beyond university work procrastination, hahaha, Oh it was a 3.45 minute toast, maybe a lot worse. Was totally not fun eating it!

I stopped five minutes into doing homework for my database class to blog in hope that I will not cause myself a head injury. And apparently all I have to do is design a simple database… thing. Whatever it is. Due on Friday. I started it off last lesson- but you know, with my luck I had the worst computer which kept dying on me, so the teacher nicely offered to help me out with the work and then of course, it crashed when class ended. Then I hear my teacher talking about backing up the work cause the program doesn’t really work well after it’s been used once, or something like that. I’d like to add that this program isn’t very well qualified for an impatient webdesigner like me. Does that make sense? I’m just so stressed out, I’m going crraaazzzy. I need need need a break.

Anyway, so I’m pretty sure I’m way ahead of everyone in terms of counting down the days until I get to go back home in London to do absolutely nothing but relax. Woo. Only 38 days to go peeps! I just know I’ll get a whole pile of work due when I come back to university…please pray for me the best!

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